I have so many thoughts today and very few of them make sense.
I am usually very, very cautious of taking to the internet and sharing while I am processing a decision, because we’ve all seen those people on social media who feel the to need to process their life in status updates. When this happens our craydar goes off and we think “oh geez.” So just to get a few things straight I am not venting, I am going to be vague and I’m not entirely sure why I feel like sharing this.
With that being said… Today I was approached about an opportunity, and through processing this I have learned something about myself and where my heart is on certain matters. It was processing this new opportunity that would require me to let go of or take a big step back from other things in my life that really made me realize where my heart is in them. It is scary to realize there are things in my life that are a priority and my heart is not at all in, and things in my life that I want to make more of a priority because my heart is so very in them. I’m also so very scared of admitting these truths, and I don’t know why.
Even if I don’t go through with this opportunity I can’t erase or ignore this knowledge.
I guess the point is, I already kind of knew these things about myself but it took a different reason for and way of processing them to see them more clearly. Sometimes God gets our attention in (seemingly) “strange” ways, but when He does it is scary and freeing at the same time.